First time anyone's asked me that... Believe me, it's not by choice. I've fell in love a few times, and have always been faithful, meaning I don't cheat, don't have any kids all over the place, so... no baby-mama drama, lol. I have had the experience of enduring a couple of miscarriages, which turned out to be blessings in disguise, cuz the women weren't really meant to be mine. I think God saved me from that, because I DO believe that a "family" should be just that... a family. So I intended to marry her/them. Nevertheless, I can't bring myself to settle for a woman, that doesn't have her priorities in order, God first, then her children, should she already have any, parents & siblings, then the husband & so on & so forth.
Don't get me wrong, I'm no where near perfect, & we've all made mistakes, minor & major. Plus I'm not just gonna be with someone, just to say I'm "married," or "engaged" or whatever. And true, I get lonely sometimes; but I have peace in my spirit, so I endure. Anyway, there is no "perfect woman" for me, & I ain't too picky, admittedly a bit color-struck, (which I've honestly asked deliverance from, and God's working me,) but still, I'm not TOO picky...
The Word says "When a man findeth a wife, he findeth a good thing, and obtains favour from the Lord." (Proverbs 18:22) That being said, I've even vowed that I won't look any more, God's gonna have to send her to me, but then I couldn't really trust her, cuz I didn't find her. So that won't work either, lol. Yet through patiently waiting & seeking Him, that we may be led to one another, eventually, I'll find my good thing. It's usually men that fear commitment, yet I've been willing to commit since the late 90's. Go figure...
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